Ride or Die

I've been to the desert, I've walked trails in forests and woods, I've been on top of mountains, and have stood the edge of the ocean.  These things ignited a fire inside of me that created something wild, something that cannot be tamed.  I'm not a religious person, but I do consider myself to be spiritual.  I find myself creating my own spiritual mish mash of different cultural methods, beliefs, and magic that my soul tends to yearn.  A medicine, moon gypsy who wears many different cloaks, so to speak.  My church?  She is outside with the wind blowing in my hair and my feet pressed firmly into the raw earth.  She is the wolves howl at night.  She is the desert thunderstorm.  She is the sparks that dance freely, disconnecting themselves from the flame of a burning fire.  She is the rain pounding against asphalt on hot summer nights.  She is a connection to me and this world in which I live.  My god?   She hangs with the moon and lives in the trees.  She is the open wind.  She is that wild in me that cannot be tamed, teaching me to live, to be free.  She is everywhere inside of me and everywhere outside of me.

Who am I?  I've never been one to wear labels.  In fact it is fucking impossible for me.  Truth is I am a chameleon soul.  I am too many things entangled up all in one, making it impossible to identify with any one thing.  I have no fixed personality.  I am a reaction to this world in which I live.  I am a woman all tied up in her interests, passions, and love.  I am light and I am dark.  I am indefinable, yet many times find pieces of myself in lyrics.

"I was always an unusual girl.  My mother told me that I had a chameleon soul.  No moral compass pointing me due north.  No fixed personality.  Just in inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean.  And if I said I didn't plan for it to turn out this way, I'd be lying."*

Yeah, I'm that girl.  The one who you know too fucking well, or not at all.

Part Wolf.  A sweetheart and a savage.  I am an artist.  I'm your ride or die.

I'd have it no other way.  I am happy.  My heart is full.  I love many people and I am in love.  I have my moments.  I walk into the bathroom and I cry and I walk out as nothing ever happened.  I keep it together and I crumble all at the same time.  I am also strong.  I am a badass mother fucker.  I love too much to not be♥

I know some of you feel me on this.  I know I have a wolf pack out there howling at the moon right now.  My ride or dies.

"Who are you?
Are you in touch with all of your darkest fantasies?
Have you created a life for yourself where you can experience them?

I Have.
I am fucking crazy
But I am free."*


*All quoted lyrics are from pieces of the spoken word "Ride" Monologue written and spoken by Lana Del Rey*